On December 24 I wrote a blog post that I never published. It was entitled Here is to 2009. I thought I would wait a bit before publishing it and then the Gaza Massacre happened and other things became more important than my personal rants and raves about 2008 and 2009. Yet I have been thinking about the post and I have decided to post it below. I post it and yet want to comment on how three days after the positive note the year was ending on was turning sour, the big bang I wanted to start 2009 with was not that of guns and bombs.
Yet I look at it on a personal level again and though I first felt impotent, angry and I didn’t know what to do with my energies, I put my first resolution to the test. I did get more involved with different initiatives and will continue to get more involved on different levels.
In positing this I am still thinking there is much to be done and some of what I want to achieve is trivial but these trivialities are a privilege and I am thankful for the privileges in my life. 2009 did not start on a positive note with occupation, genocide and abuse being the dish of the day. But I am an optimist and I think that things will change and turn around. I think that because in my own way I know I can help initiate change even on a small scale with a word, a picture, an action. Small change can become big change and there are ways to turn misfortune into small wins. We just need to find that silver lining.
So if you wanted to know what I was thinking that happy day here it is, but do watch this space to know how things have changed and progressed in the mundane life that is Shalabieh’s World!
Here is to 2009
Last year I ended the year with a Thank you note (And I want to thank…)
It was a review of a year gone and passed it was year that ended positively for me 2007 was great. It was the year I turned 30 and it was definitely a milestone year. Looking back at 2008 I can only say it just keeps getting better. My thirties are definitely better than my twenties. And as the fortuneteller in Bangkok said: “30 good, 31 better, 32 BETTER. Good money, good job, good lover!” So 32 here I come. But not before I say good bye to 2008.
The year 2008 was a wonderful year. This year saw some much growth and change and all for the better. This year was a turning point in many ways with many wonderful things happening:
- It was the year I reconnected with Palestine after an absence of 8 years
- It was the year I met my nephew for the first time and really knew what it meant to be an aunt
- It was the year I got connected at home with a new laptop and allowed internet to reinvade my private space (not so sure that’s a good thing)
- It was the year I took a passion to the next level and bought my first SLR camera and I love taking pictures with it
- It was the year I made a lot of new friends near and far and got close to a lot of them
- It was the year I realized how much I liked development work and working with people underprivileged and underserved to better all our lives
- It was the year I explored more of the Middle East than any other with travels to neighboring and not so neighboring countries and I realized how much I love the Middle East
- It was the year I reclaimed me once again from the clutches of an unfulfilling love.
- It was the year in which I stood my ground
- It was the year I asserted myself
It is a year that is ending on such a positive note that I can only look forward to 2009 with anticipation and excitement. I am looking forward to a number of things on so many different fronts that I will have different kind of new year resolutions’ list. 2009 will be the year that
- I will get more involved
- I get out of debt no matter how miniscule
- I will work on a photography project that will result in an exhibition
- I will write more here and start a writing project too
- I will take up learning to ride a bike again
- I will reclaim the kitchen again and start cooking for myself
- I will go somewhere new I have never been before and I am not just talking about travel
2009 is my year because I want it to be, not because a fortune teller told me it would be. So I will defiantly be drinking to 2009 and bring it in with a nice big bang!
Happy New Year everybody and see you in 2009.