On December 24 I wrote a blog post that I never published. It was entitled Here is to 2009. I thought I would wait a bit before publishing it and then the Gaza Massacre happened and other things became more important than my personal rants and raves about 2008 and 2009. Yet I have been thinking about the post and I have decided to post it below. I post it and yet want to comment on how three days after the positive note the year was ending on was turning sour, the big bang I wanted to start 2009 with was not that of guns and bombs.
Yet I look at it on a personal level again and though I first felt impotent, angry and I didn’t know what to do with my energies, I put my first resolution to the test. I did get more involved with different initiatives and will continue to get more involved on different levels.
In positing this I am still thinking there is much to be done and some of what I want to achieve is trivial but these trivialities are a privilege and I am thankful for the privileges in my life. 2009 did not start on a positive note with occupation, genocide and abuse being the dish of the day. But I am an optimist and I think that things will change and turn around. I think that because in my own way I know I can help initiate change even on a small scale with a word, a picture, an action. Small change can become big change and there are ways to turn misfortune into small wins. We just need to find that silver lining.
Here is to 2009
Last year I ended the year with a Thank you note (And I want to thank…)
It was a review of a year gone and passed it was year that ended positively for me 2007 was great. It was the year I turned 30 and it was definitely a milestone year. Looking back at 2008 I can only say it just keeps getting better. My thirties are definitely better than my twenties. And as the fortuneteller in Bangkok said: “30 good, 31 better, 32 BETTER. Good money, good job, good lover!” So 32 here I come. But not before I say good bye to 2008.
The year 2008 was a wonderful year. This year saw some much growth and change and all for the better. This year was a turning point in many ways with many wonderful things happening:
- It was the year I reconnected with Palestine after an absence of 8 years
- It was the year I met my nephew for the first time and really knew what it meant to be an aunt
- It was the year I got connected at home with a new laptop and allowed internet to reinvade my private space (not so sure that’s a good thing)
- It was the year I took a passion to the next level and bought my first SLR camera and I love taking pictures with it
- It was the year I made a lot of new friends near and far and got close to a lot of them
- It was the year I realized how much I liked development work and working with people underprivileged and underserved to better all our lives
- It was the year I explored more of the Middle East than any other with travels to neighboring and not so neighboring countries and I realized how much I love the Middle East
- It was the year I reclaimed me once again from the clutches of an unfulfilling love.
- It was the year in which I stood my ground
- It was the year I asserted myself
It is a year that is ending on such a positive note that I can only look forward to 2009 with anticipation and excitement. I am looking forward to a number of things on so many different fronts that I will have different kind of new year resolutions’ list. 2009 will be the year that
- I will get more involved
- I get out of debt no matter how miniscule
- I will work on a photography project that will result in an exhibition
- I will write more here and start a writing project too
- I will take up learning to ride a bike again
- I will reclaim the kitchen again and start cooking for myself
- I will go somewhere new I have never been before and I am not just talking about travel
2009 is my year because I want it to be, not because a fortune teller told me it would be. So I will defiantly be drinking to 2009 and bring it in with a nice big bang!
Happy New Year everybody and see you in 2009.